Your words are but a rope
a means for you to pull me in
and you’ve done just that
again and again
and again…
Dangling me on a string
for the ugly world to see
in this simple instance
as I pretend to not be me
Your smile is but a knife
one that cuts clean through my flesh
that drains my bleeding heart
until there is nothing left
I’ll open these eyes that have been blinded
From all that I’ve not wanted to see
Behind your facade, I have been hiding
Hoping for more than I knew it would be
So blindly lead into the fire
Without as much as a fight or a fuss
But even I have grown weary and tired
No longer in you, can I trust
So I’ll put out these flames with my teardrops
As I lie here broken and blue
Bombarded by hate and by heartache
I’ll drown in my sorrows for you
What is it with me
and forbidden fruits?
The chase
The waiting
This game ends in despair
Just damaged
Battered and bruised
Toxic, abused
The ever falling pear
Catching whispers
Silently spoken reveals
Emotional tyrant
The jump
with no net between myself and the ground
The tragic run around
Building smoke riddled fires
From hopeless desires
All from the face of deceit
Fruits of our labors
Never paying off
Rotting away slowly under the burning sun
In the heat
consumed by this fire within
Without you
Always without you
I fall
I run, jump and fall
To a love
Desperation
To my death
No more
Nothing left after all
There is nothing left of me, certainly nothing left for you
Losing sight of everything, those things that I once knew
Forgetting where my place is, leaving all of it behind
Letting hate consume everything of the nothing I am inside
In this time of contemplation
my mind still has tricks to play
After everything is said and done
I am forced to live another day
The madness held before me
on this slowly breaking string
I have listened to so many lectures
yet I haven’t learned a thing
