Lonely

If you’ve never felt lonely,

I can tell you how it feels

Loneliness feels like the only fish in the ocean

It feels like the last air bubble making it’s way to the surface

Lonely is standing in a crowded room and not being able to connect with another human

It’s when the moon has waited all day to come out to play but everyone is in bed sound asleep

So if you’ve never felt lonely

Let me tell you how I feel

Lost

I keep looking over my shoulder
Hoping there’s someone out there searching for me with lantern in hand and a kind heart
I’ve hidden behind these shadows for so long that I’ve lost myself in the dark
I’ve absorbed it through my skin the way I should the sun
Darkness surrounds me and I desperately seek the way out
Can’t someone come save me

Memory Induced Insomnia

Words and images crash against my skull
A train gone off its rails
Unbearable madness trying desperately to break through
But the surface is stronger than my will power
The chaos creeps up through the cracks
Broken seams it seems
Fissures overfilled with the wreckage
Empty mechanics ruptured in ways I never imagined possible
Such pandemonium in my head
Only when the fog lights dim and I set my mind to cruise control

The Reasons I Write

Sometimes these words haunt me
They stick around like smoke in a dense fog
I write them down like enchantments
A circle drawn around me in salted tears to keep my ghosts away

Sometimes these words protect me
They envelope me like a fire blanket
I write them down like a secret cipher
A literary passcode that helps to keep my demons at bay

Sometimes these words kill me
They cut me down to the bone
I write them on my skin like a scratch board
Scratchings of madness rendered in flesh that I betray

Bad Dreams

You come to me deep inside my slumber
Whispering sweet sorrows into my ears
As if my own thoughts don’t carry enough toxicity
Your sadness surrounds me like a ring of fire
Pulling me in close and then swallowing me whole
This feeling flows with a steady pulse throughout my veins
Injecting your fears into my bones
Already brittled under the weight of my own worries
Crushing me beneath your darkness
Pushing your nightmares hard against my dreamland
Causing me to wake to heartache and rain clouds