So many times before

And the demon came a calling
Like so many times before
He tried to pull me under
He tried to hold me down
But this time was different
This time I stood my ground
I stared into his eyes
Felt his fire burn hot upon my skin
But this time I was stronger
I refused to let him in
The demon came a calling
Like so many times before
But this time I saw him coming
And my soul I would not give
I won’t give up that easy
I will never let him win
I will fight until the end
When there’s no more life for me to live

Demon in Disguise

The past comes back to haunt you

when your ghosts live in your head

When everything you’ve buried deep

come back from the dead

Stirring up recollections

you thought had turned to dust

Pouring acid on your heart

just to watch you rust

Peeling back your scabbed flesh

simply to see if you still feel

Toying with your every emotion

when you’ve finally started to heal

He’s just a demon in disguise

a deadly wolf in a sheep’s skin

Your heart pieced back together

just to be ripped apart again

Manufactured Rainbows

Manufactured rainbows

lined with candy coated hearts  

sugar crusted teardrops

fall like crystallized ** stars **

 

All that glittering frosting

upon a cake that is putrid in rot

masking everything evil

A sweetened delight it is not

 

Sugar coated lies you tell

are straight from the devils heart

I should’ve seen right past you

You were evil from the start.

Whispers in the Shadow

Whispers in the shadows,

while I’m walking through the dark

Clutching my fists in offense

as my fears hang on my heart.

 

Behind every single corner,

there lurks an evil to be had.

An innocence forgotten,

as blood slips through my hands.

 

A life I once lived full of regrets,

always wanting my grass greener.

Lost in my own fear of faith,

deadened of my old demeanor.

 

You appeared from out of nowhere,

with a grin so full of malice.

I submit myself to your misery,

in your fiery desolate palace.

Shadows

Standing in these shadows

where I’ve hidden for so long.

Its hard to remember a time,

when nothing has gone wrong.

 

It seems for all the good I do,

the bad outweighs it all.

I try to rise above it,

but eventually I will fall.

 

Living life on an eggshell,

while it cracks beneath my feet.

Never on the winning side,

this race with my demons, I cannot defeat.

 

Sordid loser? maybe,

but what’s the point of a losers race?

Tell me why I feel this,

someone put me in my place.

 

I fear the love of another,

so I hide within my hate.

So as I loathe my inner feelings,

this abomination is my only fate.

 

Remain hidden in the shadows,

keeping away from the light of day.

Darkness keeps me comfortable,

so within it I will stay.

Just a Simple Soundtrack

Every once in awhile I post a song that really moves me in a way that most others don’t.  It usually has lyrics that are close to my heart.  A song that every time I listen to it I get the chills, because it seems like it was written about my life.  The one I am going to post today is “Shake It Out” by Florence and The Machine.  I absolutely love this song, it is magical.  The music video for it is pretty awesome too.  The first time I heard this song on the radio I teared up.  The experience that the woman has in the lyrics is one I am all to familiar with.  I am very familiar with the pains of a broken heart, and her words just tear at my heart strings.  She says everything in this song that I have thought, but wasn’t smart enough to put on paper.  She has a fantastic voice, and you can hear her soul in it.  I hope you guys enjoy it.  I am going to post their youtube video, and the song lyrics, because I know when I hear a song I love I want to read the words like a book to fully let it sink in.  Enjoy!!

 

 

 

“Shake It Out” by Florence and The Machine

Regrets collect like old friends
Here to relive your darkest moments
I can see no way, I can see no way
And all of the ghouls come out to play

And every demon wants his pound of flesh
But I like to keep some things to myself
I like to keep my issues strong
It’s always darkest before the dawn

And I’ve been a fool and I’ve been blind
I can never leave the past behind
I can see no way, I can see no way
I’m always dragging that horse around

Our love is pastured, such a mournful sound
Tonight I’m gonna bury that horse in the ground
So I like to keep my issues strong
But it’s always darkest before the dawn

Shake it out, shake it out, shake it out, shake it out, ooh whoa
Shake it out, shake it out, shake it out, shake it out, ooh whoa
And it’s hard to dance with a devil on your back
So shake him off, oh whoa

I am done with my graceless heart
So tonight I’m gonna cut it out and then restart
‘Cause I like to keep my issues strong
It’s always darkest before the dawn

Shake it out, shake it out, shake it out, shake it out, ooh whoa
Shake it out, shake it out, shake it out, shake it out, ooh whoa
And it’s hard to dance with a devil on your back
So shake him off, oh whoa

And it’s hard to dance with a devil on your back
And given half the chance would I take any of it back
It’s a fine romance but it’s left me so undone
It’s always darkest before the dawn

Oh whoa, oh whoa…

And I’m damned if I do and I’m damned if I don’t
So here’s to drinks in the dark at the end of my road
And I’m ready to suffer and I’m ready to hope
It’s a shot in the dark aimed right at my throat
Cause looking for heaven, found the devil in me
Looking for heaven, found the devil in me
Well what the hell I’m gonna let it happen to me

Shake it out, shake it out, shake it out, shake it out, ooh whoa
Shake it out, shake it out, shake it out, shake it out, ooh whoa
And it’s hard to dance with a devil on your back
So shake him off, oh whoa

Shake it out, shake it out, shake it out, shake it out, ooh whoa
Shake it out, shake it out, shake it out, shake it out, ooh whoa
And it’s hard to dance with a devil on your back
So shake him off, oh whoa

Breaking The Ice

Slowly breaking the ice as you chisel away at my heart. Tearing the wounds wide open, revealing everything that is evil underneath this flesh. A demon delving deeper into the burning ruins that once held the spark of a pure soul. Tossing and turning in the flames inside of this self contained pit of anguish. As the fire consumes, the vestige of my tormented soul diminishes. If I fall any further into the blaze I will not make it out dead or alive. I am destined to be the dust that settles, lying in wait, for something to come by and disturb me in my everlasting slumber.

~heart & soul~