into the night

As I sit here wondering, pondering
All alone my mind is wandering
Thinking thoughts of regret and sorrow
Knowing that my shitty today
Will turn into a shittier tomorrow
Holding tight under my cloak of black
Hoping hell has a tunnel back
But I fear I’m stuck inside these fiery tombs
Drowning my lungs in the burning fumes
Losing faith in men unseen
Even death couldn’t make me clean
Thoughts lost in dark, I’m losing light
Seems my world is engulfed by night
Hatred brews in this mind of mine
And I lose touch from time to time
I let it slither under my skin
It eats me up from outside in
I wish my fears would somehow fade
So I could forget the mistakes I’ve made
But this hell within has its grip so tight
That not even hope could make this right
I think this is it,
I may have lost the fight
All that’s left is to drift off into the night

Do Me In

I’ve become disconnected

as this infection 

within me spreads

gnawing to get out

dying to do me in…

fighting for this blood

slowing in these veins

drowning in my own destruction

again and again and again

losing the spark 

within the fire

forming ice over my remains

I welcomed your poison 

as it seeped under my skin

ripping through me

dying to do me in…

Embers

This sky is on fire

the clouds are burning down

fighting thoughts of degradation

leaving nothing in these hands

just soot stained fingerprints

around your forlorn throat

life outside you

lost within you

deep inside the fold

turned outside in

and inside out

it’s all the same

grasping onto everything

the wind perpetrates the embers

wreaking havoc on your soul

nothing left of your cooling ashes

nothing left to make you whole

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Overflow Me

These memories,

They haunt me

They have filled me to the brim

Filled me with fire and ice

Choking on the ashes that fall from my own lips

Whilst my heart only grows colder

Harder

Contradicting the others ability

Those memories

Those taunting visions are the gasoline that fuels me

The ones that bring me down

Leaving nothing but  a hollowed out shell

Climb inside and replace those recollections

Fill me with your life

Your love

Make me overflow