Tag: heart
After All
I used to look back
Because those were brighter days
But that was before I sat myself down inside the chaos
Before I let myself be absorbed into the darkness that surrounded me
My heart isn’t made up of brighter days
After all
It’s made up of hostility and hatred
Shattered hopes and dying dreams
It’s as dark as the day when the sun finally burns out
I’m burning out
Spinning in circles only fans the flames
I’m so full of fury
That it drips off my brow like sweat
Fueling the anger that runs hot beneath my skin
Filling these empty voids with memories like tinder
As I set fire to all the good I’ve kept within
My heart isn’t made for brighter days
After all
Not with all the darkness that it’s soaked in
lights out
There is no light when the love’s gone
There are no better days or open doors
It’s like walking through fields of water overflowing
Each step you slip deeper
Every minute brings you closer to the edge
An abyss awaits to suck you in and bring you down
It’s there to remind you of everything you’ve loved and lost
To convince you that nothing matters because all of the shit that used to, left you behind
Waiting in the distance hoping to watch you cave in
Under the weight of it all
To drown in the very tears that held memories as they slid down your cheek
It’s dark when the light is off
And cold when the love runs out
Fool me once
I’m a fool
I fool myself into believing in people and love and lies
I fool myself into thinking this time will be different
This one will be different
That I’ll be different
I fool myself into listening to people and bullshit and lies
I fool myself into believing that the grass can be greener on the other side of the fence
Only to realize that I am that which creates the poison
That which grows the toxic roots that spread amongst everything I touch
I am a fool
I’ve been fooled into believing in people and lies and myself
Some days I’m full of fire
Like embers dancing with the wind
A full on wildfire
Burning bridges at both ends
On others I fall fast like ashes
Just a burnt out speck spread amongst the filth
Burying myself alive
Underneath my own guilt
Chromatic
We’re living in a chromatic world that chooses to see everything in black and white.
I’m trying to keep my head and heart clear while everyone around me lives behind rose colored glasses.
We hate and argue over differences in appearance, thoughts and beliefs.
I’m trying to see the good, but it’s really hard to understand any of it.
So I’ve become comfortably numb in a world that’s become comfortably ignorant.
Hollow
Hollow heart
Darker than my shadow
Broken words
Quieter than my whisper
Words tangle
Tongue tied
Cold heart
Love lied
Time flies
Wounds heal
Love lost
Pain feels
Treading Water
I feel like I’m treading water
And the harder I fight the current
The faster the waves pull me under
Every time I take a breath
My lungs fill and I fall deeper
The surface is but a glimpse of what could have been
What should’ve been
What will never be
I can feel the sand flow through my fingers now
As the darkness starts to sway
To and fro before my burning eyes
As the last tiny bubble of air escapes my throat
I manage to release a whisper
Nothing left to say but a sweet goodbye…
Left Me
You left me bleeding
Standing naked in the street
Crying out for you
Bearing my soul to all who could see
I stood there broken
Unable to make a move
Unable to open my eyes
Afraid that the rain had washed you away
Afraid that you had disappeared
Right before my eyes
But you remain here
Tormenting my heart still
Breaking what little is left of my free will