Tag Archives: heart

Treading Water

Posted by laciejay on

I feel like I’m treading water

And the harder I fight the current
The faster the waves pull me under
Every time I take a breath
My lungs fill and I fall deeper
The surface is but a glimpse of what could have been
What should’ve been
What will never be

I can feel the sand flow through my fingers now
As the darkness starts to sway
To and fro before my burning eyes
As the last tiny bubble of air escapes my throat
I manage to release a whisper
Nothing left to say but a sweet goodbye…

Left Me

Posted by laciejay on

You left me bleeding
Standing naked in the street
Crying out for you
Bearing my soul to all who could see
I stood there broken
Unable to make a move
Unable to open my eyes
Afraid that the rain had washed you away
Afraid that you had disappeared
Right before my eyes
But you remain here
Tormenting my heart still
Breaking what little is left of my free will

Fonder

Posted by laciejay on

And my heart grows colder
Even as the flames begin to rise
Not even this torrid hell I’m in
Can melt the ice behind these eyes
Drifting further from complacency
My feet no longer firmly on the ground
Unsure of where I’m headed
Afraid of what I’ll find if I look down
Aware that the consequences
Of the wrongs that I have done
Are the reason for this torment
And my future soon to come

Overflowing

Posted by laciejay on

I let my disappointment build up until it overflows onto everything I hold dear
It stifles my heart to the point that my words no longer mean anything
I’m quiet and timid and offputting
I am a great distance from not only those that I care about but also myself
I can’t remember the last time I smiled a real smile
I’m worried that no future is going to be any better than my past or my present
My light is dimming and I’m losing myself in this dark hole that I crawled into
I’m lost and this ever growing anger is pushing me farther into the abyss