Left Me

You left me bleeding
Standing naked in the street
Crying out for you
Bearing my soul to all who could see
I stood there broken
Unable to make a move
Unable to open my eyes
Afraid that the rain had washed you away
Afraid that you had disappeared
Right before my eyes
But you remain here
Tormenting my heart still
Breaking what little is left of my free will

Everything

You are the sound of my heart beat
And the taste that lingers on my tongue
You are the silence in a crowded room

You are the crack in my voice
And the breath on my bathroom mirror
You are the water that cleanses me

You are the condensation on my window
And the daisy in my front yard
You are the flight in birds

You are the smile on my face
And the hurt in my chest
You are the confusion in my head

You are everything

So many times before

And the demon came a calling
Like so many times before
He tried to pull me under
He tried to hold me down
But this time was different
This time I stood my ground
I stared into his eyes
Felt his fire burn hot upon my skin
But this time I was stronger
I refused to let him in
The demon came a calling
Like so many times before
But this time I saw him coming
And my soul I would not give
I won’t give up that easy
I will never let him win
I will fight until the end
When there’s no more life for me to live

In my head

Somewhere along the line I gave up
I gave in
I created a room
That I could lock my head and heart in
I built up these walls with unbreakable stone
Knowing that self preservation meant being alone
Sitting here lonely, this love gathering dust
Drifting away in my tears
Surely becoming covered in rust
Hoping one day that these walls come crashing down
Before these fears hold me under
And I slowly drown

Love Once Lived Here

Love once lived here
Behind man made walls
Built tall and strong
Around a fragile heart

Love once lived here
In arms so warm
Wrapped up tight
Safe from the cold

Love once lived here
So full of life
With hopes and dreams
No more sleepless nights

Love once lived here
But now it’s gone
Leaving a broken heart
And an empty home

Beliefs are weird

I don’t believe in fate, or destiny. I don’t think that good things come to those who wait. I don’t have faith in a higher power, nor do I believe that if only I pray hard enough that everything will be ok. I am cynical and a non believer in many things. I believe things that I have seen with my own eyes, touched with my own hands, heard through my own ears. I think that with time some wounds scab over but never fully heal. I believe in making mistakes and having regrets. I think that being first is scary as hell and would be perfectly content going second every single time. I don’t believe in do overs but I do believe in second chances, and sometimes thirds if I am feeling weak. I think relationships are overrated and are sometimes more trouble than they are worth. I do believe in love and love the feeling of love without all the complications that come along with it. I don’t believe that dogs are a mans best friend, not mine at least. I believe in making plans but not taking them too seriously. I think some of the best memories are made on a whim. I don’t believe that there is some predetermined path that we all walk down. I have walked on pavement, and gravel. I have walked through sand, mud puddles and tall fields. I have fought my way through forests and I still stand. I am not yet tired but when I am I will lie myself down. I don’t believe that when I’m gone I will go to Hell or Heaven. I believe that my mind will die, while my body remains tucked safely away beneath the ground.

Unforgiving Year

Cold whispers flow
Over my lips
Into an unforgetting ear
Life turns its cheek
To an internal battle
Of a dying heart
Love cracks like glass
Covering the ground
Of an unwalked mile
Eyes lose sight
Blinded by thoughts
Of yesterdays tomorrow
Time stands still
As the cold winds blow
Past an unforgiving year