Tag: poetry

Rabbit Hole

August 22, 2019

And I’ve stepped backwards again

Slipped back into the rabbit hole

Down into a swirling abyss of nothingness

I’ve tried to fight my way out of the dark

But the blackness overwhelms

Consuming me piece by piece

Bit by bit

Until all that I’m left with is rot

Eating me up from within

After All

June 28, 2019

I used to look back

Because those were brighter days

But that was before I sat myself down inside the chaos

Before I let myself be absorbed into the darkness that surrounded me

My heart isn’t made up of brighter days

After all

It’s made up of hostility and hatred

Shattered hopes and dying dreams

It’s as dark as the day when the sun finally burns out

I’m burning out

Spinning in circles only fans the flames

I’m so full of fury

That it drips off my brow like sweat

Fueling the anger that runs hot beneath my skin

Filling these empty voids with memories like tinder

As I set fire to all the good I’ve kept within

My heart isn’t made for brighter days

After all

Not with all the darkness that it’s soaked in

June 24, 2019

I feel it

The weight

Crushing my ribs

Chest cracks

Collapsing my lungs

Swallowing blood

Choking it down

Heart breaks

Ice cold hollow

Empty space

Under the weight

I am

No Avail

June 23, 2019

Trying to swallow my own madness

But this insanity creeps up slowly

Clawing first at my lungs so I can’t breathe

Making its way through the lump in my chest

Tearing open my throat as all of my anger spills out

Dripping pain and sorrow onto my hands as I try to hold myself together

To no avail

lights out

June 3, 2019

There is no light when the love’s gone

There are no better days or open doors

It’s like walking through fields of water overflowing

Each step you slip deeper

Every minute brings you closer to the edge

An abyss awaits to suck you in and bring you down

It’s there to remind you of everything you’ve loved and lost

To convince you that nothing matters because all of the shit that used to, left you behind

Waiting in the distance hoping to watch you cave in

Under the weight of it all

To drown in the very tears that held memories as they slid down your cheek

It’s dark when the light is off

And cold when the love runs out