Free

July 3, 2021

I sit and watch the walls around me crumble
As if to let me be
But the facade I’ve fallen victim to
Wants me to believe that I am free

I’ve come to be wiser than I used to
I don’t believe everything that I see
Learning to trust what I can hold onto
Maybe from these chains I can finally be free

Thread

June 25, 2021

I’m hanging on by a thread
But my grip is growing weak
So I tighten up my fist
In hopes my hold will keep

Wander

January 24, 2021

I walk lonely through these thoughts

Letting my thoughts wander

And I wonder…


How can such emptiness fill me?

Flowing over the brim

Will this empty space ever fill back in?


When I’ve been broken

Open wounds left bleeding

When can I start healing?


So, 

I continue walking lonely through these thoughts

Letting my thoughts wander

And I wonder

How do I find my way out of here? 

uneasy

November 13, 2020

My insecurities bubble up and out

They wrap me up in familiarity

I’m comfortable in the chaos

Growing used to this feeling of unease

Rabbit Hole

August 22, 2019

And I’ve stepped backwards again

Slipped back into the rabbit hole

Down into a swirling abyss of nothingness

I’ve tried to fight my way out of the dark

But the blackness overwhelms

Consuming me piece by piece

Bit by bit

Until all that I’m left with is rot

Eating me up from within

After All

June 28, 2019

I used to look back

Because those were brighter days

But that was before I sat myself down inside the chaos

Before I let myself be absorbed into the darkness that surrounded me

My heart isn’t made up of brighter days

After all

It’s made up of hostility and hatred

Shattered hopes and dying dreams

It’s as dark as the day when the sun finally burns out

I’m burning out

Spinning in circles only fans the flames

I’m so full of fury

That it drips off my brow like sweat

Fueling the anger that runs hot beneath my skin

Filling these empty voids with memories like tinder

As I set fire to all the good I’ve kept within

My heart isn’t made for brighter days

After all

Not with all the darkness that it’s soaked in